Struggles of a multipotentialite

 I came across the word "multipotentialite," a psychological term that refers to a person who has many interests and creative pursuits in life. I first heard of it on a TikTok video by @jakecreativehackers and resonated with it so much that I went on to watch his other videos. I was stunned at how much I resonated with everything the guy was saying. My career interests have evolved ever since I was a kid. I remember wanting to be a neurosurgeon as a child, then as soon as I got to high school and learnt biology I instantly decided that's not it. Then I decided I wanted to be a civil engineer, maybe because I liked physics, I even applied for that as my main course in university, which did not happen. instead, I chose to do financial engineering because I loved maths, or maybe because our head girl in high school back then had taken it and I admired her. 

By observing my thinking patterns of the past, I realize the drive I had when thinking about my career was all external. After finishing campus I ended up not pursuing what I studied. instead, life happened, and I just hustled my way through it. I decided on entrepreneurship which of course, is not the easiest route. I thought of many things and had many ideas of what I could do but most of the time I would get stuck here. I would think about things like e-commerce, research the hell out of that, then try to find a product based on what I researched. Usually, afterward, I felt a lot of anxiety and burnout because, after all the research, I was somehow still stuck. then I look at another concept, like affiliate marketing or dropshipping, and research the fuck out of that(excuse the language, but the emphasis on research here is like 10000% more) at the end of the day I was still stuck. why? What's wrong with getting to know about something before actually trying to do it?

Once again I can clearly see, that I had no inner drive whatsoever. The way I was perceiving the world was only through my memory, and I wanted it to make sense. I was gathering a lot of information based on what I thought would make me rich, but instead, I became more broke. 

Today, I find myself pursuing day Trading, which I discovered 2 years ago. As usual, I researched the hell out of this one. I thought its probably the one because I studied finance at university and I also enjoy maths. The execution of it however is quite the challenge, and yet again, I feel stuck. looking at my life, It feels like I am a beginner all the time. how do I get past this? Honestly, my interests in the other things I've mentioned are still very much there probably, because I was not able to fulfill them. 

The way I see life nowadays completely changed, ever since I decided to practice yoga on a regular basis. I thought my mind had had enough of the knowledge I kept gathering, and felt utterly lost so I decided to seek something different. The more I work on my connection to my inner being, the clearer I see. From this perspective, I decided to continue trading, but at the same time write about my experience. I began to notice that I really enjoyed the writing part even more than the trading. It almost felt as if I was using writing as a means to process my emotions and feelings about trading. This is how this blog was born. I felt an inclination to write, so I'm going with it, this time without feeling stuck. It is happening effortlessly because it is my way of processing and understanding my emotions.

If you are a multipotentialite like me, you have probably gone through similar things. After consuming a lot of @jakecreativehackers videos and blog posts, I realized that we all go through the same things in many different ways. I got inspired to explore my passions through this blog, with no niche research like I would do in the past, no way. This time I decided to always work on my connection to my inner being, take action from this perspective and then craft my own personal niche. It's the only way to create in my experience because it feels right. I now know that accumulated knowledge or memory only serves us if we are not entangled by it.